Category: Emotional

  • Healing

    Healing

    Hi, This is Neha

    This blog is my journey from confusion to clarity. I write about healing, emotional boundaries, and the silent strength that comes from choosing yourself.

    I’m not an expert; rather, I’m learning each day how to write with perfection. So read with no judgement and enjoy the words.

    Healing is not what Instagram reels show us. It’s rather very uncomfortable at first. It is not as easy as it looks from afar. No calm music, no therapy, nothing works. It starts the day you really want to get out of the mess created by you or any other human being.

    It works gradually. Not an instant result like brewing a coffee. It moves in denial, awareness, acceptance & growth.

    Sometimes I think it’s like an addiction. Healing comes with a lot of setbacks, anxieties, crying, silence, and sometimes a lot of shouting. And when one day, you are done with all of that, your healing journey has begun. It’s more like practicing a lot of times before going for final exams.

    The healing process is slow. Sometimes you feel strong. Some days will be so bad that you want to run and hide somewhere from this selfish world. It’s learning to live with the peace that someone has hurt you a lot once.

    Remembering the pain each day, but now you have stopped feeling it.

    People often say, “Healing creates a stronger version of you.” Let me explain it in simple words.
    It actually shows you that you are important to you first. You don’t need anyone’s validation to prove to the world that you are right or wrong. Start valuing yourself & then others. Start loving yourself.

    It’s simply about winning & growing silently, without any noise or echo.

    When you are healing, you progress, you grow.
    I am not perfect, but now I don’t beg for someone’s validation. My weakness is becoming a strength, & that’s what matters at the end.

    Signing off—one day stronger than yesterday. See you on the brighter side on my next blog.


  • Filmy At Heart

    Filmy At Heart

    Ye main, hasti hui. khud mein ek raaz hun main.
    Kabhi khuli kittab hoon main.
    Kabhi zoron se hasti toh kabhi chup chup ke roti hun.
    Kabhi bade saare khwaab dekhti hun.
    Kabhi dimag band karke so jati hu.
    Na samajh paye kuch log mujhe ajtak.
    Seedhi saadhi si gudiya hoon main.
    Kabhi duniya se anjaan, toh kabhi khud se hi khafa hoon main.
    Koi kehta hai….thodi filmy hun main. Choti choti baton per ro deti hu.
    Per jise pyar karti hu, use 100% apna dil deti hun.
    Kisi ki favourite kabhi banu ya nahi, khud ki favourite zarur hoon main.

  • Operation Sindoor

    Operation Sindoor

    Jab seema per khatra aya
    Fir sanik ne vaar chalaya
    Bharat maa ne fir di pookar
    Bachao sindoor
    Fir ek baar

    Chale jawan bina dare
    Andhi toofano se bhi lade
    Mann mein tha tirange ka pyar
    Maa ne jalaya aas ka deepak , fir ek baar

    Patni boli, ja tu vijay hone
    Main hu hamesha tere mann mein
    Sindoor mera rahe salaamat
    Bas ek yehi hai ab meri hasrat

    Goliyan chali
    Chale barood
    Per na hile hamare jawan
    Operation sindoor bana misaal
    Jawano ne badaldi dushman ki chaal

    kuch laute tirange mein lipte huye
    Hua unka naam amar
    Fir bhi
    Har naari ne garv se kaha
    Bacha liya tune mera sindoor
    Apna balidaan dekar

  • Courage….

    Courage….

    What do you expect when we hear this word “courage“?

    To fight with someone.

    To confront someone.

    To fight against darkness.

    To fight against violence.

    So many meaning of a single word.

    It has one more meaning, that nobody knows.

    Kisi insan ki life se gayab hona, jise kabhi aapne khud se zada pyar kiya tha — bhi courage hi hai.

    Quietly removing urself from someone’s life, once you deeply loved…more than urself.

    Constantly taking all the blames on one’s self, knowing that you were not the culprit — But because you dont want to loose that person….but eventually you had.

    Holding your tears with a heavy heart, just to show that you are not bothered by their actions anymore…..

    Loving someone so hard, knowing that he/ she cant be yours.

    Courage comes in so many forms.

    Everyone, who is fighting mentally, emotionally, or physically— for their dignity, for their identity, for their individuality— is being courageous.

    It’s time to figure out, how far this will take you.

    Either the person will loose you forever or he/she will make you his world by respecting your individuality in front of the whole world.

  • What i am?

    What i am?

    Born 3 decades ago
    I am still figuring out what i am

    Sometimes i confuse people
    I am a very happy personality
    But i am also a sad soul

    I love tobe around people
    But i prefer tobe alone in solace

    I am a super shy girl
    But i am bold enough to show you your actual worth

    I am a friendly person
    But if look at me, may be you will get an arrogant being behind me.

    I am healing & hurting at the same time

    I keep on loving who cant be mine
    I keep on forgiving who sabotages me

    I know my selfworth
    I know where i have to grow

    I know who to trust
    I who who to leave

    I am still trying to find peace within
    I am still learning from my mistakes within
    I am still trying to find balance within
    I am still trying to grow after a lifetime of chaos…….

  • Yatra….

    Yatra….

    Akele aaen hain
    Akele hi jana hai
    Na koi sath tha, na hai or na rahega

    Waise toh bohot log milte hain or milte rahenge sath chalne ke lie…
    Per Life ki asli yatra toh akele hi karni padti hai….

    Zindagi ki har umar mein log ate jate rahenge…

    Jisne jitna sath diya
    Uska thank you
    Jisne sath nahi diya
    Usko bhi thank you

    Raste mein ye mehmaan milenge….
    Koi ake bohot kuch sikha jaega
    Toh Koi ake aukat dikha jaega
    Koi sirf girane aega
    Toh koi girne se bachane aega

    Per kabhi kisike bharose kyu jeena
    Jane wale ke lie ansun kyu bahana
    Na koi sath tha, na hai, na rahega

    Akele aayen hain
    Akele hi jana hai

  • Nahi bhool paoge….

    Nahi bhool paoge….

    Main koi khaas nahi hun , ye hamesha se janti hu main
    Itni khoobiyaan bhi nahi mere ander ki tujhe age jake yaad aaun main

    Per khud per itna bharosa hai
    Apne pyar per itna yakeen hai
    Ki tu kabhi bhul nahi paega mujhe

    Aesa nahi hain ki tujhe age jake pyar nahi hoga dobara
    Aesa nahi hai ki tu apna dil nahi dega fir kisiko dobara

    Per jis shiddat se maine tujhe kabhi pyar kiya tha
    Itna bharosa hai ki waisa pyar nahi mil
    Paega tujhe

  • Tere jane ka….

    Tere jane ka….

    Tere jane ka dukh toh seh lungi…..
    Per ye jo tujhe jate hue dekh rhi hu khud ke paas se……
    Us dukh ko kaise jhelun ye batade tu mujhe

    Jab baten bilkul shoonya ho jaengi hamare beech….
    Wo raten toh kisi tarah kaat lungi

    Wo 15 ghante tujhse baaten karna
    Tera haal poochna
    Apna pura din batana
    Wo sab ab bohot raftaar se kam ho raha hai
    Wo kaise jhelun ye batade

    Tu kehta tha tere bina rehna bada mushkil hai…..
    Or ab tera kehna ki kyu paas aya main tere…
    Ye batade tera ye har din mujjse ab khafa rehna kaise maanlun ye batade.

    Tu aksar kehta tha, tune apni adat daal di hai mujhe…
    Ab tu kehta hai ekdin gayab hojaunga teri samne se…
    Ye tujhe na dekhne ki adat kaise daalun…
    Ye batade

  • Kabhi toh…….

    Kabhi toh…….

    Kabhi toh , kahin toh, shayad kisi din
    Jab apno ki bheed mein use yaad aaega ki
    Thi koi…….
    Jo pagalo ki tarah mujhe pyar kiya karti thi.

    Main har choti baat per use daanta karta tha, wo rote rote meri daant sunti rehti thi…
    Per muuh se uff nahi karti thi….

    Maine use kai baar apne kie hue logo se jhagdo ke liye kasoorwaar theraya….. kabhi socha nahi, wo nadaan pagli ……tab bhi bina soche samjhe mujje sorry bol diya karti thi….
    Wo janti thi ki uska koi dosh nahi
    Per wo ye bh janti thi ki us pagli ki jaan basti hai usme….
    Islie chup chaap saare ilzaam apne sir per le liya karti thi…

    Us pagli ko pata tha, wo kabhi use nahi manaega…. Isliye naraz hoke bhi usse naraz nahi hoti thi…

    Wo uski sunta kam tha
    Apni batata zada tha….
    Tab wo aksar kaha karti thi…..
    Kahi kisi din…..tumhe yaad aega ki
    Koi thi jo tujhe pagalo ki tarah pyar karti thi…..

  • Mera sab batana…..

    Mera sab batana…..

    Janti hu badi shikayaten rehti hain mujjse sabko

    Per
    Mera galat batate ho sabko jake
    toh kabhi mera sahi bhi batana

    Kya hua jo mujhe apni baat upar rakhni nahi ati…
    Nahi ata sabki tarah tez bolkar baaten manwana

    Kya hua jo har choti baat per ro padti hu
    Nahi hu sabki tarah dil mazboot mera bhi..

    Kya hua jo ab mana karna shuru kardiya
    Yaad hai na, jab har baat per ha kardiya karti thi

    Ab buri lagne lag gai hu
    Pehle kyi itni acchi lagti thi…